March 2024

DID I ACHIEVE MY GOALS FOR THE MONTH?
  • go outside - yes, twice!
  • follow my therpists advice and make small daily goals - no
  • better hygeine - no
HOW WAS MY MOOD THIS MONTH?

depressed, had a week where i was kinda okay but it didnt last

WHAT DID I WATCH THIS MONTH?

game changers, talentless nana, dimension 20 fantasy high, dont fuck with cats

WHAT AM I PROUDEST OF?

i got almost two stacks of diamonds in minecraft

WHAT DO I WISH I HAD DONE DIFFERENTLY?

gone outside more

HOW AM I CURRENTLY FEELING ABOUT THE FUTURE?

given up hope

DID I LEARN ANYTHING NEW?

im going thru a PDD episode as opposed to my usual MDD episode

WHAT ARE MY GOALS FOR NEXT MONTH?
  • finish fantasy high
  • write music
  • fix my phone

"i dont want to do this i am thinking like a child
i am speaking to no one, spitting words out like dirt
in the morning im a corpse, draft my emails to the corporation:
"youre saving my life everyday, god bless you"
theres no way out for cowards, suicide is embarrassing
the whole town at your door; "come back david we need you"
i just needed more money, more time, more love
all my desires are so poorly drawn now"

- no passion by car seat headrest

Screenshot of a poem. Text reads: You told your disciples, yes— but did you tell your parents? Did you sit them down at a table, try not to let it get awkward, try to get it over with. &quote;Mom, Dad, I'm — going to die.&quote; How long was the silence? Did Mary wrap her arms around you like you were a child, like she hadn't much since you'd gone away, with all the force of the tears she'd save for after you left again? Or did they cry then and ask what they'd done wrong, and did you reassure them, &quote;it's just a few days, and then I'll be better than before,&quote; &quote;I'm not the first to do this—you've met Lazarus, right?&quote; Did you wonder if they already knew, if they'd seen the signs in the myrrh, in every screaming crowd, in the way you watched Joseph drive nails into wood? Did they ask you how long you'd known, and did you know how to say forever?

- poem by kimabutch on tumblr

screenshot of a tumblr post that reads: hey i said this in a group chat earlier and honestly it fucks, so i’m gonna post it here too... Feel disgusted by something? Don’t immediately act on it. Deconstruct your disgust! Be just a little curious about it. Why do you feel disgusted by something? What is it about the thing that disgusts you? Is it the whole that disgusts you, or just a part? Do you feel disgusted because you’re supposed to? Has someone told you to feel disgusted? Are you just disgusted because something looks unfamiliar to you? Do other people seem disgusted or are there people opposing your disgust (or do they, on the flipside, like it?). Is there a cultural context you might be missing? More importantly, could there be biases like racism, sexism, classism, homo- or trans-phobia at play? Is the object of your digust actually causing harm? Does someone benefit from your disgust politically? Disgust is a powerful emotion, but one that deserves a lot of self-reflection. It’s easily weaponised and often deeply flawed. art hall:
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